Friday, June 26, 2009

Esaya (long post)

I would like to thank Kora for kick starting me into this new blog, it is something that I have been toying with for the last year or so, but what with my YAAD studies, being pregnant, then having bub it has been a wee bit hectic 

This blog will be dedicated to my spiritual side, and of course to the lore that I have been given about Dragons.

All the lore / knowledge that I have on Dragons have come from Dragons themselves, be that whilst mediating or in dreams but straight from them. I don’t profess to know everything about them, I’m still very new to working with them, but I do feel that I have an extensive knowledge of them.

How and what my Dragon name means…..

I was given the name Esaya when I was about 19 years old; I had just moved the big city (London) with my partner when things between us went bad very quickly. I was given the choice to stay or go back home, well those that will know me know that I would not just give up and run home to mummy!!! So I sat down one day in Hampstead Heath and asked for guidance……should I stay or go?

It was strange because up until this moment I had not really asked for help in this way before, I normally let my gut feelings take over, but as it often is with break-ups emotions can run very high and blot out most feelings.

So there I was sitting on the heath, it was a cold windy day and no-one was game to come up to my high spot on the hill (maybe the Dragons were guarding it…I have often thought this in the later years when I look back on this day) with tears running down my face…..I was finding it hard to meditate but I knew that I needed help…I looked up and there in the clouds clear as day was a Dragon….a green Dragon, she was so beautiful she took my breath away. She was all the colours of the leaves, from the deep green of summer to the russet brown of autumn. Then she turned her head and pinned me to the spot with her gaze, I could not have moved even if I had wanted to.

“You are Esaya, why would you run?” her voice sounded in my head….

“Who is Esaya” I asked

“You are” was the reply…

Well what could you say to that? Quite a bit if you’re me…hehehe

“Since when have I been Esaya and what done this mean?”

Now you should know that you don’t normally argue with a Dragon, one because they are so much wiser than you, two normally bigger than you and three can be very bad tempered if not listened too right away.

But in the state I was in nothing really mattered.

“You have been know as Esaya to us for a long time, your name was given to you in a dream and means Firelight Sun Princess”

Wow now that she had told me I did remember a very strange dream I had had when I was about 15, I remember dreaming that I was high on a mountain and there in front of me were five Dragons, each one represented the five elements, Earth, Air, Fire, Water and Spirit. I was speaking to them, but to this day I can not remember what I was saying (maybe in time I’ll find out) then the Spirit Dragon lifted her head up and said one word


Then I woke up with the worst headache and ended up staying home from school that day, and all day my mum kept asking me to listen to her and stop daydreaming.

So when I was called this again by this beautiful Dragon it did strike a cord with me.

The Dragon actually look kind of a amused with me as I think I had one of those light bulb moments when she was telling me!!! I asked if I could ask her a question, to which she replied,

“why, when you already have the answer in your heart”

I have to say I still find this kind of answer to any question frustrating…and my Dragons know this….think that’s why I get so many of them 

Any way I knew by then that I was going to stay in London, I gave myself six months to see if I could make a go of things on my own then if not homeward bound.

What about the RAN part of my name well that will have to wait as I didn’t get given this part of name until just before I left for Australia.

Esaya RAN

3 wisdoms:

Wendy said...

Oh, my! That is an amazing story!

Did you understand the earth, fire, water, air, spirit connection when you were 15 or was this just further confirmation when you came to understand it?

Looking forward to the next instalment about the second part of your name.

Kathleen said...

Yes, it is a powerful story xxxx

Esaya-Ran said...

i had an understand due to my Nan but yes most of if came later